Thursday, September 28, 2006

L O N G Week

Without knowing where to start to explain, take my word, it has been a rotten week. There was a large in depth description written on here of how the inner workings of my head seem to be failing slowly and how it is tearing apart my my life every so gently. But, I decided not to get that in depth...

With that said, I called off yesterday. Since I have managed to work my self into such a ball of nerves, there has been no sleeping on my part. Which quite frankly is making me and everyone around me miserable. What is bothersom is that I know it's happening and I can't fix it, stop it or "tone" it down to a tolerable level. The biggest fear I have of myself is failure and this is the only thing I have felt lately. Mostly with parenting. So, same old shiznitz, different month or year.

Calling off was nice, Of course I felt quilty, but I took a 2 hour walk/trail hike...
The "mental health day" was needed. I did take quite a few pictures and killed 2 sets of batteries in my camera. While walking...I actually was able to take a breath without pain. 8 hours of sick leave ...priceless.


I leave you with the quiet momment I had...