Thursday, August 23, 2007

I feel...

Beat up. Someone or something came in the middle of the night and roughed me up, or at least it feels like it physically. Mentally? Feeling just about the same. Conflicting thoughts, worries, panics and the general sense of uneasiness. Such is life...

Anyone know of a job where I wouldn't take a huge pay cut and only work 9am-2pm? Yeah, me neither.

So yeah, conflicting thoughts of working and being there more for JC before and after school. His delicate emotional, behavioral, social issues need more stability for a good while...
If I could only go back a few years and change so many little details that would have added up in his favor.

See? Mothering/parenting guilt.
No right answers to choose from, just not sure what direction in the road to take at this point. Wow, is it going to be a long school year...

8 comments:

JaniceNW said...

Don't worry about right and wrong but what will work now. I wish I could help you out. One advantage of being in college is that my hours are so flexible.

Hugs.

Hole said...

wish I could offer advice in that dept, but I dont' have any kidlets. I'm sure you are trying the best you can though, so try not to beat yourself up. :-)

Also, regardless of having no kids, I'd like to know when you find that 9-2 job.... :-)

Chrissy said...

I wish I could offer you a 9-2 good job, but I am not able. I do have a few words of advice and reminding: You were chosen, not randomly picked to be JC's mom. It was not an accident, your job and everything else does not matter. It is quality and not quantity. Give him good coping skills and teach him how to use them, by you using them correctly and quit putting so much guilt on yourself, you are the right mom, at the right time and the right place............use it to JC's and your advantage! Make a good choice and remind yourself you always always have a choice, it is our job to choose best for now!

More Than A Single Mom said...

You are a nurse right? What about a doctor's office?

My Wonderful Men..... said...

I know where you are coming from, I feel the same way.

Peant Butter and Jelly Boats said...

It's never easy, is it? Who knew that parenting was gonna kick our butts so many times?!?!

Hang in there Donut, your a great mamma!

Teena said...

If you find that 9 to 2 job that pays a fortune, please make sure there's one for me too :)

Crooked Eyebrow said...

Thanks everyone, just one of those weeks...