Monday, August 27, 2007

You're reading what?

I was given an assignment , a look back on your life and reflect upon it kind of assignment. All from my rent a friend of course, and if you're visiting late in the game, yes, I have a therapist. So far it's going well, except that Dr. Phil had me thinking way too much last night and I couldn't sleep.

I wouldn't have thought my rent a friend would be a Dr. Phil follower, but the Life Strategies Workbook does have good tools to self examine. Who knew I had so many daddy/daughter issues? It didn't flat out tell me this, my pen was flying off the paper when I wrote about my father....

So, I have issues, what's new? On top of reading this fine (heh) Dr. Phil book, I am also reading the book I won from Sheryl at peanut butter and jelly boats. It's been a busy mental recheck, self helping, you're a good person kind of weekend, let me tell you!


The first section of the book is a quick self- check where you check off any statements that resemble your present experience. Wow, is it bad that I checked a lot? The one that stands out the most? I'll share, no hiding here....

I'm just "going through the motions" of my life with no passion, no plan and no goal.

That is hard to admit. It's true. I have no passion about anything in my life. Sure I love being a mother, a nurse and a wife but aren't those just my roles? I'm 28 years old and I don't have any passions in life. Up until I starting taking pictures and carrying a camera more often, I had no hobbies or enjoyment. I'm not sure what exactly I'm looking for either... Hmmm...Quite lacking in self fulfillment area as well too, I'm sure that's in a book somewhere too...


After these two books are done, I still have a few books I'm waiting to read as well. I'm thinking I'll need to find a non self help book after these though. Some thing happy and funny that won't leave me awake thinking all night.

So yeah, happy Monday...

8 comments:

Peanut Butter and Jelly Boats said...

It's so hard to do self help things sometimes. Keep it up, you're doing great!

More Than A Single Mom said...

I've always thought about seeing a therapist. I don't have the balls. Too chicken to admit to some of the issues I have. Congrats on making that step to make you better.

Crooked Eyebrow said...

I felt the same way, but it's worth it to unload to a non-biased person. The first 2 I had were worthless, I'm lucky with who I have now. I actually look forward to going now. I highly reccommend it. If you've thought about it, most likely you'd be better with dealing with issues.

I certainly have buried things my whole life and it feels better to release it and face it now. AND it was hard to admit on my blog that I go to one.

It's actually my only *me* time I have...

Chrissy said...

Continue with the way you are going, the therapist, the books and even read make me laugh, self help books (there are plenty of them), take it in stride, don't beat yourself up and take passion for right now in the you that was created for purpose and take your time to figure it out. If you are trully "in it" and "desire it" you will receive it and find the peace and passion you are looking for!

My Wonderful Men..... said...

I love to read self help book but it can be a hard reality check at the same time. But it will help to unload the junk about your dad.

Teena said...

It's good to have someone to talk to sometimes.

I'm with you re having no passion ... I'm envious of people who do. I'm still looking for my passion and I'm 45! Help!!!

Hole said...

wow crooked eyebrow! you sound like my twin. I also have a rent a friend to deal with my ocd issues, I just started a few weeks ago. so far so good. and I too have no passion and def feel like I'm going through the motions and whats worse, is I have no children, no husband, and no job I love or am even interested in. I have no hobbies. I feel you due!

oh and I'm 30. I feel very direcionless. oh well, such is life.

wow what a pillar of positivity...check back for more inspiration!

Arianne said...

it takes a lot of courage to go through a self-reflective time when you know it won't be a cake walk. i'm not a fan of unsolicited advice, but here's some anyway...think outside your usual box, don't assume you'll fail, and i bet you'd start seeing some wee lit'l passions popping up. :)

hang in there! (picture little kitten hanging off a tree branch..puke a little...)