Friday, April 25, 2008

Have you?

Have you ever had a deep dark secret that only a few selected people have ever known about?

Have you ever spent so much time protecting that secret, that at one point in your life it was overwhelming?

Have you ever contemplated spilling your guts at your weakest moments?

Have you ever wanted someone to ask you something so you could just answer honestly and not have to carry the heavy burden any longer?

Have you?

Have you ever felt the painful exposure of your protected secret?

Have you ever wondered if carrying the secret for so long was even worth it?

Have you ever wondered if telling was worth it?

Have you?

Have you ever struggled for years on how to manage your pain of hiding something?

Have you ever figured out how to deal with hiding your secrets?

Have you ever had to tell therapists your pain?

Have you?

Have you ever had to convince yourself that you are doing the right thing?

Have you ever wondered if your secret that had at one point consumed your life was even big enough to consume your life?

Have you?

Have you ever let the darkness be a shadow and put a overcast over your life and who you wanted to become?

Have you ever wondered how your secret effected others?

Have you ever had to wonder how exposing a secret would effect someone else?

Have you?

Have you ever thought you already have had to think to much for so long, so it's not worth thinking about?

Have you?

14 comments:

momentsofmotherhood said...

Yes. And it's awful, isn't it?

Adventures In Babywearing said...

Oh my gosh- yes.

Steph

Some People Call Me Mom said...

I was seriously just pondering some of the same thoughts a little before I came over here to see what you're up to.

It sucks. For sure.

SJ said...

Oh my. Yes. YES.

To Think is to Create said...

Absolutely. It eats you alive if you let it.

Mimi's Toes said...

Totally Yes!

Ann(ie) said...

YUP!!! Oh my yes. This is really good. And thought provoking.

Autumn said...

I sure ha......

Wait... who did you talk to?? What do you know??

Oh boy.... oh boy (ricking back and forth)

This Mama's Trip said...

Yes I have. But I know how to stop the torture and get over it...however deep down inside I do not want the torture to end. Because, if I ended the torture...then what would I be left with? What would I do if it was really "gone"? Crazy isn't it?

Anonymous said...

xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo

my wonderful men... said...

Yes and it sucks.

dcrmom said...

Oh my gosh yes. (And I was going to write exactly that before I read Steph's comment, believe it or not.)

Yes, yes, yes. And it is brutal.

Roses Are Red, Violets are Violet said...
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Roses Are Red, Violets are Violet said...

our pastor likened it to carrying a huge, heavy backpack through life...weighing you down...

I thought it was a great analogy. And, yes, I've been there. I've also taken that backpack off and boy does it make a diffrence.