Monday, May 19, 2008

10 things, a challenge, part I

While caught up in my own emotional turmoil, being the only guest at my pity party, a challenge was offered. Would I accept? I accepted and then a little birdie whispered “I need you to tell me 10 things you love about your life.”

It should be easy, but for someone that isn’t completely satisfied with her own life, 10 things is a lot to name off. Oh holy hell, what kind of trickery is this? How can I name 10 things I love about my life? MY LIFE?

All afternoon I sat and pondered how I would answer? Not wanting to just slap a list together, I decided to list one love at a time. Realizing now that part of that challenge or simple request was to think, reflect and to further appreciate all the things I do have in my life that I absolutely love.

*10 things, part I*

The greatest gift, job and love that has ever been bestowed upon me, motherhood, is by far the greatest love of my life. It started when I saw those two pink lines, the one wish I had always hoped for had come true, and I was going to be a mom. Me, I was going to be someone’s mommy. Tears of joy, fear and overwhelming love continued for months as the kicks grew stronger. Bonding between my baby and I was something I will treasure for the rest of my life. No one else in this whole wide world ever got to feel his kicks, his toes pushing out, his hiccups, just me, his mommy. I nurtured, I grew and I birthed this beautiful baby boy, JC.






As time passed I watched him go from a sweet, cuddling infant into a tough toddler. Looking back we winced with each fall, each bruise and waiting eagerly for each word to be spoken. The world was becoming brighter as he took the world by storm. He grasped everything he could with all his might and he took it all in. Each day he continued to learn, to do something new and he grew. Those big blue eyes looked at everything and I can still remember those chubby fingers pointing at everything while his teething mouth yelled “Wa dis?” “Oooo, ook, ook at dat”. Oh and those big boy shoes running across the room to give momma sloppy wet kisses.




It seems that one night I was patting a baby with long blond, curly locks to sleep and we awoke to be a preschooler with short hair. Overnight came the trials and struggles of potty training and non stop talking. The vocabulary that he picked up and the knowledge that he soaked in, made me so proud. So very proud of him, I told him every night when I leaned over him to tuck him in. “mommy loves you and I am so proud of you”, he would stir each time and nod his sweet little head up and down. So while his feet grew and the clothes shrunk, our love, our bond was still growing.




Now in elementary school, I am still so very proud of him. In fact I just whispered it to him “mommy loves you and I am so very proud of you” and his head nodded. These last two years have been a challenge for him but he has continued to accelerate in school, master first grade and I have watched him grow into his own little person, now only telling him to shake off the falls. To see that has been a huge joy for me and although we have so many more years of growing to do together as mother and son, I can’t help but realize that JC, my son, is the first love of my life.

I look forward to what the future holds for us together and as a family.




The future is bright kid and you have made mine all the much brighter.





I wubba you JC. All my love,

Mommy

15 comments:

Megan (FriedOkra) said...

I'd say that's a darn fine start, ma'am! And he is DARLING! What a great, happy post to start the morning.

Mimi's Toes said...

You looked adorable....This was a tear jerker post....

Beth at I Should Be Folding Laundry said...

I love it. I am so glad you agreed to that challenge, your love and your pride shine through with each word.

Excellent post, my dear.

iheartchocolate said...

Sniff.

Very sweet!!

Sarah said...

What a great start for your 10 things!!! I'm looking forward to reading the rest of them...but I know this will be the most meaningful for you, I can read it in your words!!

Peanut Butter and Jelly Boats said...

He is so precious and so blessed to have you as a mommy!

Lynette said...

What a sweet and touching post. He's such a cute guy!

Mary Beth said...

My nose is tingling because I'm trying not to cry at work...I too get red for hours after a few tears! Hmmm, we must be related or something. I love you and that cute little guy more than anything...miss you guys.

mb
xoxo

Stacie said...

very sweet!!!

Carrington said...

You were so cute preggo! I loved this post

milk&honey said...

I can't wait to hear about things 2 through 10!

Mel said...

That was great and I think a perfect #1. Can't wait to read the other 9. Hope you had a terrific Tuesday!

chrissy said...

I love it!! YOU as a mom need nothing more! I LOVE IT!!!!

my wonderful men... said...

Oh what a beautiful post!

Ann(ie) said...

You're killin me here. HE is such a beautiful child, girlie!!! And it all goes so damn fast. Ben's in that babble, run into walls stage and I love it, but I wish I could wrap him in bubble wrap!