Thursday, July 24, 2008

Random bits from the week that just won't end...

Quite honestly this week has had extreme highs and such very lows. There has been laughter, then tears, then sobbing, then giggles all in a span of lets say a few short minutes.

( Hi! Welcome to my emotional roller coaster for the month of....what month is it? O yeah, July. Damn this PCOS and it's evil hold on my cycle.)

*During this week of hell I have managed to completely forget about taking my Metformin for such PCOS as mentioned above. That and the diet I was to be on, no such luck, momma hit DQ twice this week alone.

*JC currently said "momma" more than 5 times in 30 seconds all while having a mouth full of food. I'm slightly annoyed.

* It's easy to be annoyed when you are on your 39th day of your cycle and there is no starting in sight. Freakin' hormones. Stupid Ovaries. Screw you uterus that will probably never hold another baby. Take that.

*Today I got the mail. Chester's remains where on my front porch and I wasn't ready to feel that yet. I wasn't ready to face the fact that I'd never see his furry little face again. I wasn't ready to not have him come look for me when Dad would say "where's mommy". I wasn't ready to never feel him lay on the couch with me again. I wasn't ready...

*JC has wardrobe issues. He only likes certain pants, shorts,patterns, socks. When he was in parochial school he wouldn't wear any uniform pants with pleats because he thinks they are "fat boy pants". It continues today. Now? No button down shirts. NO stripes and for the love of God, don't put "long socks" on the boy. He will freak the hell out.

So after dad got him dressed this morning, long socks included, he went on a10 minute mission to find "short socks". Have I mentioned I haven't done laundry in a week? O yeah. Only one old pair to be found. Sock drama resolved, until tomorrow that is.

*Can I be honest? I would like to think I could share things, but you know, it is the internet...
Ok. every time I look in the mirror, I find more long, black hairs on my face. It's sicking. Not only am I pluckin' the brows, it's now my chin. (WTF? Damn hormones)

Whew, it's good to get that off my chest, I'm only a little bit embarrassed. ( ok a lot and if you are like my sister and pluck the hair while talking to me, I might hit you. Be warned)

*It was so hard not to go buy a pack of smokes this week. So very hard. That was my coping mechanism up until a year ago. I became stressed and I would light up. Oh man do I want just one. ( I won't,but still)

*271, how many times I was ready to walk out on my job this week( I'm still employed)

*Commercials are mind numbing to watch in my household with JC. He watches them, turns around and asks me for what ever it was for. ANNOYING. Last night he asked for an erectile Dysfunction med. (Yes I know, it was the discovery channel and he did not know what he was asking for). For about a year he constantly asked for "comcast digital cable". Luckily I grabbed the phone before he dialed the last time.

* Mr. Crookedeyebrow showed me this blog, I love it. GO look at all of them. I hope you laugh too.

*This week I'm finding it hard to stay in a good mood. I would like to be so happy that I could stand out on a corner singing, pulling rainbows out of my non-coach bag and while handing them out to everyone I see, but it's just not in the cards. My apologies. Personally I'm having a hard time not flippn' complete strangers off for driving in front of me. (HI hormones)

*I do have another concert to go to this weekend. I'd tell you but then people may make fun of me and I'm not in the mood to be made fun of. ( cough, Neil diamond, I love him)

On that note, I'm spent, so share with me. Tell me out of all the concerts you have ever been to, which one was your favorite?Was it the music? the crowd? or the memories you created that made it so great?








***really I'm OK and I do apologize for my negative vibes. You see, that's the beauty of blogging. Venting, de-stressing and putting it all out there to move on to something better. Tomorrow? Tomorrow is my better day. Promise.

I forgot to tell you my favorite concerts.
The Cure, Neil Diamond and Metallica, John Mayer. In that order. Quite the variety huh? That's how I roll...

17 comments:

Mel @ A Box of Chocolates said...

I totally get your up and down week although I'm sorry you're going through crazy body stuff. I have often said how jealous I am of men as they never experience any of the crap our bodies do to us. I can relate to the plucking of hairs too. I'm glad through it all though you have had some periods of smiles and giggles and I wish more on you for the coming days!! Hang in there!!

Miss L said...

I am so very jealous that you get to see Neil Diamond! Grrr.... :) If I were having a bad week, I know Neil could heal it, so I hope he does it for you :) Enjoy!

Susan said...

Sorry things are so craptastic right now. I hope Neil cheers you up!

imadramamama said...

I'm so sorry you are feeling that way. If I were there, I would go out to DQ with you. Just call me Enabler...

I've been to some good concerts. 7th row for Phil Collins a few years back. Awesome seats for Genesis last year.

But my bestest memory was for REM when I was still in high school. We had lawn seats at an outdoor concert and the last song was "It's the End of the World as We Know It". At that moment, it started pouring down rain and everyone on the lawn was getting soaked but dancing like there was no tomorrow. It was flippin' awesome.

jaime said...

Came across your blog and couldn't help but comment :) First, I'm so sorry about Chester...

I saw John Mayer years ago - I've been listening to him since before he was on a record label, and he was one of my favorite shows, right up until every 16-year-old girl discovered him and I turned 21. Couldn't handle the screaming girls (me, not him.) I haven't seen him since 2001. My favorite concert in addition to him would have to be Jack Johnson, Jason Mraz and Maroon 5 - all on the same ticket. I saw them in Charleston, SC on what would have been my wedding day, had I not called it off. I went with one of my best friends and we ended up meeting Jason and Jack - and my "wedding day" pictures are awesome!

iheartchocolate said...

aww, girl...I am sorry.
I certainly know how you're feelin though. Sucks.
It's just wrong to have that sort of delivery without a call saying it was okay. Working for a vet for many years, we always gave a courtesy call to find out if the owners were ready. It's a tough call to make.

Concerts...new kids HA, garth brooks, alan jackson, sara evans, (and I don't even LIKE country) nickle back, brad paisley, the eagles, jane monheit, mike mcdonald, incubus and hootie. My fav was jane monheit because I adore jazz and I was entranced by her flawless beauty the entire show, oh shania twain, gypsy kings...My fav is jack johnson, who I haven't gone to yet! I am going on the 12th and can't wait. The ones I went to with my husband were my favorites..cause we held eachother during the meaningful songs and drank lots o beer. Always fun. I hope you have a fantastic, fantastic time with neil.

Crooked Eyebrow said...

Jaime.
I love your story. I love that you made a new memory for your day. Thank you for stopping by to share. It meant alot.

CE

*Lissa* said...

I love venting through blogging, it always makes me feel just a little better! ;o) Hope you have better days ahead!

As far as concerts, I haven't been to many... but I have to say my fave was Page & Plant from Led Zeppelin. Their music always soothes the soul! :o)

Aimee said...

Sorry you're having such a crummy week. Hopefully it will get better, just in time for the weekend!

My favorite concert has to be Jimmy Buffett. It was a perfect mixture of great music, great people and great memories! :)

Lost A Sock said...

I'm so sorry for your lows, and celebrating your highs with you (and plucking chin hairs, too, haha). My girlfriend Cindy (coletwins.blogspot.com) also has PCOS and knows it through and through. She too braved the infertility roller coaster and has two (!!) sets of twins. I'm sure she'd be more than happy to talk as someone who knows, if you tell her I sent you.

I do hope you get everything you've been waiting for, very very soon. I'm keeping you in my prayers.

Megan (FriedOkra) said...

Well, pass the Metamucil girl, I love Neil Diamond and have chin hairs, too. My favorite concert ever was a James Taylor concert under the stars in Atlanta, with my sweet husband. Our first official date, nine months after Bean was born. We drank champagne and ate a light dinner as we listened to JT singing all of our very favorites, including my favorite lullably to sing to Bean, Rockabye Sweet Baby James. I wept these huge, quiet tears of gratitude and joy for my little family throughout the whole evening, and could barely breathe through the feeling of being HOME, finally, after many long years of feeling alone and apart from everything and everyone. Thanks, JT. And thanks CE for a beautiful memory. I hope you have a better day today. Stupid hormones.

Megan (FriedOkra) said...

(I mean our first official post-baby date, of course. We had many, many dates BEFORE Bean was born. Just wanted to clear that up!)

Mimi's Toes said...

Oh, I would give anything (maybe my coach purse) to see Neil Diamond! I tried to win tickets on the radio this week...I am so Jealous. If you happen to have an extra ticket, my weekend is free...and what a special birthday it would be since I will be turning "42" (LOL) next week....Oh well, I guess mimi can only dream...at least I can say I saw Elvis before he died....

Not Just Any Jen said...

Those cakes are a riot! I have seen tons and tons of concerts in my day. To pick a best may require some thinking, but I would say it was probably a Dead show. Hope you feel better!

Stacie said...

hugs...sorry you were having a yuck day.

Favortie concert...I haven't been to too many, but the Janet Jackson, black cat tour was AWESOME!

I have seen: Santana (good one), Metallica (ok one), Genesis, a couple b96 bashes, Ricky Martin (that was a fun one) and....that might be it...I can't think of any else I have gone too...and most of them were YEARS ago.

NEXT year I am hoping to go to the Jimmy Buffet concert, but mostly for the preparty in the parking lot, I have heard it is a HOOT and I am ALWAYS up for a HOOT.

Erin said...

Ohhh, Neil Diamond. He makes me wish my name was Caroline!

I'm sorry you've had such a rough week. I really hope that today is a much better day for you.

JackeeG4glamorous said...

Sorry that you are all "hinky". I too have a hormone-o-riphic story to tell (catch my three part series entitled Menopause, why I want to light a match to my hair, part 1) and let's not even get INTO industrial stregnth, Nair-defiant chin/body hair that aught not be there!
K, now, my favorite concert? Hmmmm, I'm a 70's girl...I saw Jethro Tull last year and had 3rd row seats, yes, they were in need of Geritol, but it was freaking awesome. The best, aside from that was Celine Dion on a warm summer night in the late 1997 at what was The World theatre. She sounded like a miracle her voice so clear and angelic and powerful. Ahhhh, I'm going to see her again in November. Also, I had row 14 seats to Matchbox 20 a few years ago and that was great.
(It was no "Sweet Caroline", but Rob Thomas looks a little better in his leather pants than Neil, there I said it)
Call me when you need Premarin and we can smoke out behind the woodshed and cuss.