*All week the only song that has replayed itself over and over in my head has been..."here comes the rain again, falling on my head like a memory..." by the the Eurythmics. I'm not quite sure if it's because of the actual rain or just my mood this week.
*My waddle that was previously mentioned is now gone, as is the lower back pain. Which was nicely replaced with awful neck and head pain. Just in case you were wondering, ya know.
*I have an estranged father who I have not been able to stop thinking about lately. It's been almost 4 1/2 years since I have spoken to him. The possibility of forgiving him has been weighing heavily on my heart. Parts of me feel that if I just tell him how he has let me down as a father for so many years and the forgive him for the last episode we had, that I may carry less weight on my heart about it in the future. (and I know it would help his...) But I'm not sure if I am strong enough to face him just yet.
*must think happy thoughts...must think happy thoughts...
*For 2 weeks now I have had practice photo shoots to do and the weather has not cooperated. I get so nervous ahead of time to do them and then we have to reschedule. Like tonight, I have engagement photos to take and it's nothing but thunderstorms in the forecast. Which sucks because they still want to take them inside some where (booo I like natural light) and I also won't be able to do 3/4 of the shots I have planned. At least in this sitting, but I like and welcome the practice.
* Our baby girl still doesn't have a name yet. Nor any ideas for her room. I just know that I don't want her room to be pink. Pink clothes are okay, but not wall color. Names? Clueless.
*Also in this past week I have been upset with myself with gaining too much too fast. Which in turn pushes me to something sweet to deal with it rather than walking on the treadmill.
*I am a sucker for any good guitar or piano solos in music. Love them. Love.
*This week while driving JC to his new summer day camp we have heard the Black Eyed Peas every morning. He now says "you are so 2000 and late" non -stop. But he is so damn cute to watch in the rear view mirror when he is singing and booster-seat dancing.
*Since I have mentioned shaving in just about every random post, I'll keep it going....
I haven't shaved my legs in over 2 weeks and to my surprise, the hair isn't bad. I do not advise brushing up against me though.
*Have I ever expressed how much I dislike packing lunches? I do. It should be this great mommy thing to do, but I hate it. The best part is putting love notes in for JC and surprising him with special treats, but the task of doing it each day stinks.
* I was addicted to Swedish fish last week but had to give them up. I miss them and all their yummy sugar goodness. The thoughts of flunking my glucose test next week won that mental battle of parting with them.
* Speaking of shaving again. It was discussed with the girls that getting a Brazilian is well worth the pain. Even more so before you deliver. So...there you go.
*With about 15 weeks left of this pregnancy I am starting to worry about breast feeding. The books are a little overwhelming and I know how hard it was to get JC to do it. I failed with him and worry that I won't be able to do it with her. From the beginning, that has been my #1 goal. No formula. We'll see how it goes.
* There is nothing fun planned for the Crooked Eyebrow family for this summer, so I'll live through other people. What do you have planned? Picnics, camping, travel??