Friday, June 19, 2009

Random once again.

*All week the only song that has replayed itself over and over in my head has been..."here comes the rain again, falling on my head like a memory..." by the the Eurythmics. I'm not quite sure if it's because of the actual rain or just my mood this week.

*My waddle that was previously mentioned is now gone, as is the lower back pain. Which was nicely replaced with awful neck and head pain. Just in case you were wondering, ya know.

*I have an estranged father who I have not been able to stop thinking about lately. It's been almost 4 1/2 years since I have spoken to him. The possibility of forgiving him has been weighing heavily on my heart. Parts of me feel that if I just tell him how he has let me down as a father for so many years and the forgive him for the last episode we had, that I may carry less weight on my heart about it in the future. (and I know it would help his...) But I'm not sure if I am strong enough to face him just yet.

*must think happy thoughts...must think happy thoughts...

*For 2 weeks now I have had practice photo shoots to do and the weather has not cooperated. I get so nervous ahead of time to do them and then we have to reschedule. Like tonight, I have engagement photos to take and it's nothing but thunderstorms in the forecast. Which sucks because they still want to take them inside some where (booo I like natural light) and I also won't be able to do 3/4 of the shots I have planned. At least in this sitting, but I like and welcome the practice.

* Our baby girl still doesn't have a name yet. Nor any ideas for her room. I just know that I don't want her room to be pink. Pink clothes are okay, but not wall color. Names? Clueless.

*Also in this past week I have been upset with myself with gaining too much too fast. Which in turn pushes me to something sweet to deal with it rather than walking on the treadmill.

*I am a sucker for any good guitar or piano solos in music. Love them. Love.

*This week while driving JC to his new summer day camp we have heard the Black Eyed Peas every morning. He now says "you are so 2000 and late" non -stop. But he is so damn cute to watch in the rear view mirror when he is singing and booster-seat dancing.

*Since I have mentioned shaving in just about every random post, I'll keep it going....
I haven't shaved my legs in over 2 weeks and to my surprise, the hair isn't bad. I do not advise brushing up against me though.

*Have I ever expressed how much I dislike packing lunches? I do. It should be this great mommy thing to do, but I hate it. The best part is putting love notes in for JC and surprising him with special treats, but the task of doing it each day stinks.

* I was addicted to Swedish fish last week but had to give them up. I miss them and all their yummy sugar goodness. The thoughts of flunking my glucose test next week won that mental battle of parting with them.


* Speaking of shaving again. It was discussed with the girls that getting a Brazilian is well worth the pain. Even more so before you deliver. So...there you go.


*With about 15 weeks left of this pregnancy I am starting to worry about breast feeding. The books are a little overwhelming and I know how hard it was to get JC to do it. I failed with him and worry that I won't be able to do it with her. From the beginning, that has been my #1 goal. No formula. We'll see how it goes.

* There is nothing fun planned for the Crooked Eyebrow family for this summer, so I'll live through other people. What do you have planned? Picnics, camping, travel??

10 comments:

roxymommy said...

I say you go for green and chocolate brown in her room... or cream. Something cozy but not over the top girly!

roxymommy said...

P.S. Go to www.potterybarnkids.com and check out the baby girl bedding and the unisex bedding, there is some super cute non-frilly non-pink sets!

Mimi's Toes said...

I love your random thoughts as always. I pray you find the opportunity, when it's right for you to talk to your dad. As for baby names, there are a few that I really like, in fact I just wrote this name down from a client. Ava Celine. I also like, Paige, Brooke or Brooklynn & Violet.
I need to shave my legs. Have you ever tried Nair? This time next Friday I will be taking off in a plane to see my sister and have a fun vacation.

Mimi's Toes said...

P.S. if you name her Violet you could paint her room lavender.

Ryley said...

hmm.. i dont know how much help I can be with the names. I like boy names for girls.. and you probably dont. One of my all time favorites is Austin for a girl. I really like Eliza and Elliot.

BUT i do have one fantastic peice of advise. I was TOTALLY paranoid about being strep b positive. I planned on having a completly natural birth and didnt want an iv's and that would have thrown a major wrench in the plan. So every night for 2 weeks before before I went to bed I put a peice of garlic... well.. you know where! I've heard it works wonders.. and no strep b for me!!! Something about the garlic kills that virus (and yeast infections too!) I dont know if that's why.. but i'll probably do it again! (its a little tricky though because you have to have a way to get the garlic back out! Not so easy at 30 weeks pregnant! :)

I dont have too much advise on the gluclose.. i was terrified of that one too, but i dont think there is any way of tricking that one... sorry...

I vote for a slightly green room...

Erin said...

The books might be overwhelming, but your friends are not, and we'll all be here to help you when the time comes, okay? So don't worry, you have SUCH a wealth of information that goes above and beyond books because let's face it... books won't be there for a middle of the night struggle, but your friends will be.

Sarah @ BecomingSarah.com said...

I'm about three or four weeks away from delivering and I'm the same way about breastfeeding. It surprises me immensely as I'm typically a very go-with-the-flow sort of person, but I just want it to all WORK.

Sigh.

Good luck making the choice with regards to your father. My husband goes through the same thing, so I know how tough it can be - kind of, in a secondhand sort of way. There's just no easy answer, so I wish you the best making the choice that is most befitting your family =)

imadramamama said...

Go with lavender and lime for the girls room...

I think "Thea" has a nice ring to it...

That's awesome that you want to breastfeed. But what happens will happen and your baby will be healthy either way (said the mom who failed the first time and didn't even try the second time)...

The 4 of us are going to Virginia Beach and just Dave and I are going to Prague...

amy f. said...

Hello...I've commented on here a couple of times (a long time ago, I think), but just felt compelled to finally comment again today. I am 23 weeks pregnant with a baby girl as well...very excited. I'm also a little worried about nursing. My son will be 5 when the baby comes, so I feel like I'm starting all over (I forget so much), like you. I didn't have the greatest milk supply and only lasted 6 months with him, but was still glad I did it. I totally forget all of the tricks to it, so need to study up, I guess. But, I will be relying on friends of mine who have been there more recently, as I imagine you will be, too.

I have to say...Ryley's comment about garlic in the you-know-where to prevent Strep B! I have never heard of this and can't imagine doing it. Glad to hear it worked, but wow. Getting it out? Aah! Snd am I the only one that thinks it would burn? Not to mention the smell I'd probably be emitting.

Well, congratulations...I am very happy for you :-)

*Lissa* said...

About the breastfeeding -don't let the pressure get to you. I wanted to breastfeed the twins, but during their NICU stay for 6 days, we weren't "getting the hang of it". I continued to pump and pump, then bottlefeed the breastmilk. The neonatologist was insistent that if I didn't get the hang of it before we left, it would never work. BS. I pumped and bottlefed for weeks after we came home, and kept trying.

You know what? We finally got it (even if it was a month later!). And I breastfed them for 10 months. Until the teeth made me too nervous. ;o)