Thursday, September 10, 2009

It has been how long since a random CE post? Too long (i think)...

I think it may have been too long since my last random post, so why not now, right? Right.

*weight gain....booo. Yes I'm pregnant, but dammit I did not want to gain this much. How much? 28 pounds so far.

* at 8 1/2 months pregnant I climbed Mt. Baldy. Seeing how when I was pregnant with JC I think I was so out of shape I would have passed out doing it, this time I was proud of myself for not even getting winded. Go me...

*As of right now, my kitchen is not done but it should be this weekend. Operation baby room is next.

*My sister is pregnant and I haven't seen her enough. I'm hoping that we can at least get a belly photo together since I never in a million years would have thought we would have been pregnant together, even if we are 5-6 months apart. She always told me she wasn't going to have kids, so when she finally got married, I knew I would be an Auntie CE soon. The day before she told us I made a comment how she should be having something to tell us soon...I was right. Big sisters are always right.

*Sometimes when I go use the restroom at work I think the toilet is worse than a scale. It shouldn't creak when my large pregnant ass sits down to take one of many pee breaks a day. The scales don't scream when I step on them, a toilet should creak when I sit down. That's all I have to say about that.

and that I have my post baby workouts ready to go because obviously even a toilet has a weight limit these days.

*My co-workers had a baby shower for me and I am still amazed how much they gave me. FLOORED I should say... I kept saying that they did too much and the only thing they can reply is "you always do". It made me realize just how lucky I am to work with great people.

* I am nervous about being a "new"mom all over again. Scared, nervous, worried. Do I remember how to do this all? Not to mention going back to work full time with 2 children, a husband, a house and a dog. My chest gets a bit tight just thinking about it.

*I figure it's going to cost us at least $1,200 a month in just child care cost alone. This makes me wonder if working is worth it. Well I know it is because of health insurance, life insurance and other benefits. But still. To have to pay that much for someone who I most likely will not feel entirely comfortable with to watch my children while I go to work sucks. After JC's experiences with daycare, I'm not looking forward to it all over again.

*I haven't had my hair cut since May. That is a long time but I figured I saved money, even though I looked tore up. Yes, tore up. Nasty. Shaggy. Non-beautiful. Gross. Worn out. Here is to hoping that I will feel better about my appearance after my appointments next week.

* As I type this, I am having contraction (most likely braxton-hicks) about every 15-20 minutes.

* Another pregnancy note. I'm tired of people telling me I'm not going to make it to my due date. I'm tired of people arguing with me if I will "pop" sooner. It's frustrating when older men of all people feel the need to tell me that I won't make it another 3 weeks. Makes me think I should have a poll of some sorts... I was hoping for Oct 1st myself.

*My 3 front left teeth are loose, says the dentist. Yet I did not tell him just how much ice I have been chewing. Instead he went on to tell me I'm grinding my teeth in my sleep and/or it's pregnancy related.

Well, as Mr. CE can tell you, I sleep with my mouth hanging open most of the time, so let's hope it's pregnancy related.'s braces for me all over again. Great.

*If there was anything I wish I could do before the baby it would be to sleep in a comfortable bed at a hotel and be able to swim all night and morning long. I didn't get to swim this entire pregnancy and I only wish I could have a weekend in a hotel to do both. Money is too tight...

*Also, if I had a magic lantern I would wish for Heidi Klum's pregnant body. I think Mr. CE would agree too. Maybe I wouldn't have had to chew so much ice....(kidding)

*Some co-workers/friends are going back to school and are currently taking Chemistry. I helped them with some problems and I loved it. Like I forgot how much I miss using my brain love it. It kinda sorta makes me want to go back to school, but then the Mr. Reality slaps me in the face and says,"Dumbass! You'll have 2 kids soon, a job and NO time or money to go back. Silly fool...."
(I kinda picture Mr. Reality as Mr. T. I pity the fool...)

So then I quickly retreat and stop daydreaming of a better career and money and return to my regular scheduled life.

* I'm addicted to reading every day. I'm not sure why, but I am.

* Knowing that I suffered from post-partum depression and even more weight gain after JC, I made a goal that my Miss E's first birthday that I want to be able to run a 5k. Right when I got pregnant with her, I started doing the couch to 5k program and had to stop. So? I am setting a goal to get back on track and complete that goal.

*I need new shoes.

*My bags are not ready to take to the hospital. Should they be?

*Another pregnancy note, There have been too many people that look at me and say "Whoa, you are having a baby!" I mentally slap my forehead and say no shit Sherlock and then I kinda want to punch them for saying something so stupid.

I did actually say, "Nope, just gained a bit too much this summer."

* I hate chain emails, prayer emails, "keep this going or else" emails, "if you delete this all your hair will fall out" emails. I'm just sayin'.

*The other day I had a dream my baby came out with a penis. It made me panic that I have way too much pink in the closet for Miss E.

*Speaking of Miss E, I now find it funny when I tell people her real name and they look at me, not liking it and still try to fake and say that it's cute. People, people, people, I don't care if you like it or not, I love it and I think it's going to fit her perfectly.

Unless she does come out with a penis.... then not so much.

Question for you, all 4 readers I have....

If you could change one thing that has happened in 2009 so far, what would you change?


Anonymous said...

I read you ALL THE TIME, but lurk and dont comment since I dont have a blog...
Anyway.. I would change THIS: I have been a military wife for 16 yrs. We just moved to a new post in March, and I kinda pushed for the move. (where we were at had VERY violent schools).. Problem is.. I HATE IT HERE! I am miserable! :( So.. I would chane the fact that I moved to hells armpit.. he he
Amy T

Lost A Sock said...

I can't say I would really change anything from the year, even though some unhappy things have come and gone. It's all brought me to here, at least.

What I did want to say, is that I'm so excited that you're due so sooooon! I can't wait to see her! You will fall back into the baby routine very quickly, I'm sure. Also, I wanted to have all 50 pounds of baby weight gone by the time Marin was one, but I took things slowly and have six of it lingering. That too will go in time. And hopefully more. I'm excited to hear about your couch to 5K! Just don't push yourself too hard early on. Be kind to your body.

Gosh I think I'm writing you a book here... :)

Amy said...

I read you a lot, but don't comment often. This post made me want to...enjoy every minute of your last few weeks! I hated every minute of being pregnant. I had morning sickness every day all day for the ENTIRE time. I am talking puking MANY times a day everday. It sucked. I secretly (not anymore, right?) want more kids but don't want to go through that again. So I envy folks who are pregnant! Also, I am addicted to too! What IS up with that?

imadramamama said...

Pack your bags. Just in case you don't make it to Oct. 1. It'll take you 5 minutes and you'll feel so much more relaxed knowing you have one less thing to worry about.

And E's name is beautiful. Screw those people.

Something I would have changed...I would've gotten a 2nd opinion about my tooth before I entered this downward spiral of implants and bone grafts.

Jen L. said...

I hear you on the name thing. We told a select few people that Dean was our boy name before he was born and most of them, my parents included, turned up their noses. Now that he's here, no one can imagine him being called anything else.

If I could change one thing about 2009, I would campaign for more ME time. My life is seriously lacking in me time. (Funny how my husband goes fishing every other day, though...)

livinginagirlsworld said...

Mmm, what would I change about this year. I can't think of anything big, but I wish I could change the fact that my 3yo dumped a cup of coffee on my laptop and it cost me over $500 to have it fixed.

Mendie said...

So glad we are close to getting to know Miss E's mind is swimming with the possibilities! And I second the thought...screw what people's your baby and you guys are all that matter.

If I could change one thing, it would have been to stop worrying about money so much and enjoy life as it is. Always worrying about the what-ifs kinda spoils the everyday joys we are lucky to have! That and I wish I would have stayed on track more this summer with my weightloss so I could be at goal when we start TTC next month!

Fuzzy said...

You have the best random posts. You know, I had a dream when I had my DD that she came out like a boy. I FREAKED out the next morning!

One thing I would change this year, is that I would stop worrying so much about what other people think or say about me. I have had a rough summer, and have doubted so many things about myself by what others have said about me, and it made things so hard. I needed to just step back and let them go.

Enjoy those last weeks! When I was in my 32nd week or something, i was asked more than once if I was having TWINS. Can't get worse than that. It was only one, but with Gestational diabetes, he was a whopper!

Marjorie said...

I read your blog everyday. I'm wishing you well with your sweet, new baby. Hmm, my guess is either Elyse or Eloise :) The one thing I would have changed in 2009 was finding love in TX. It was sad for SO many reasons.

Janine said...

I love reading your blog, especially since our due dates are only a few days apart. I keep dreaming that mine is a boy. We don't know what it is, so I think it's just wishful thinking since I already have two girls and I know this is our last baby. As for the name, much of our family disliked our daughters' names (Emma & Bria) when we named them. I didn't care and they got over it.

If I could change one thing about 2009 it would be the amount of time I have spent worrying about things that are out of my control. I've wasted too much time worrying about things that eventually worked out just fine.

chrissy said...

I love your randoms, they are always wonderful!
I hope your appts next week make you feel like the beautiful woman you are!

Bacardi Mama said...

I love random posts. Yours was great. Can't wait to find out Baby E's name.

If I could change one thing about 2009 so far, it would be that one of my very best friends breast cancer (cancer free almost five years)hadn't metastized to her lungs. Cancer sucks!!

Elaine A. said...

Random totally rocks. And you've done GREAT on your weight gain. I've gained 40 this time. Oh man, that's a lot. I'm in SO much trouble. But I can't wait to get back to running too, once I can.

I'm also a little worried about my baby coming out with a penis but I haven't dreamt about it yet. But you know the last two did so...

If I could change something in 2009 it would be moving because I just don't like change. But we are here and doing pretty well and I'm trying to make the best of it! : )

Mimi's Toes said...

You know I love your random posts more than butter. Where do I begin? I would probably change the fact that I blew my diet every Monday and would be at my goal if I didn't like food so much. I think you have done great at gaining only 28 lbs.

Cousin Amber said...

I absolutely love your "random" posts. I'm thinking about starting a blog just to get soem of my "randoms" off my chest! Love you D, and you look beautiful!!!

Jess said...

Like poster numbero uno, I read your blog all of the time, but don't post because I don't have a blog. But, I really wanted to come out of lurk-dom after reading:)

Like another one of your readers, I wish I could change that I worry so much about everything. It eats me up, and I just wish I could be one of those people who just shrugs their shoulders and says 'whatever happens happens' and be ok with it. I HATE it that I fret about everything. Gah. And, my oldest daughter, at the ripe old age of 8, really wants to run for student council but worries that noone will vote for her:( So, now I will be fretting for myself and her. Grrrr.

Screw the people who don't like the name. I have a Mackenzie and an Emma, and we heard comments from people, too. But, you know what? Their names fit them perfectly.

And, my E guess is Eloise. And, may I just mention that it's a favorite name around here due to the fact that both of my girls watch the movie every day. My other guess is Elle.

Love the belly pics. I struggled with infertility, too, and can't tell you how happy I am that you are have been so blessed.

I'm rambling.


SJ said...

I can't wait until you reveal Miss E's name. I just can't wait!