Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Life happens, so dance...

Life happens...

There is a beginning and an end, but it is what happens in between those two events that matter the most. It has been those in between moments that we have been clinging onto this week as my entire family has been watching my aunt move on to the end of her life.

Life...it happens.

Simply put, my Aunt Chris is a fighter. She always has been and even at the end of her life she is continuing her fight. As she lays in her hospice bed she still has beat all odds this week and continues to cling on to the life.

When I look at her, when I stroke her hand, all I can think of is where she is right now. Because in my heart my Aunt Chris is not laying in a bed watching her body fail her. With every ounce of my heart I truly believe that she is on some spiritual journey before she finally leaves this earth. When I look at her she looks as if she has a purpose. Her eyes squint, her mouth twitches and I know she is off doing something amazing. It is my belief that she is reliving her amazing life. All week long we have waited for her to take her last breath and I can only think that she has had such an amazing life to relive and that's what is taking her so long to let go.

Aunt Chris is a hard working single grandmother who did not, would not take life all in while sitting down. She is a mover, a shaker.... As I grew up I watched her work jobs that some men wouldn't have the strength to do. I watched her dance. I watched her laugh and most of all, I watched her love.

Sitting in her room this week I would watch her long, lean legs kick and move and I was left thinking that while she was reliving the best moments in her life she must have been dancing. As the week passed she has had increased restlessness and her legs just keep on moving. It's funny because other family members worry about it and all I can do is enjoy watching her continue to dance. Aunt Chris, no matter what, never needed a party to dance and I will remember her just that way. Even in the end, she continues to dance.

Life happens...so dance.

14 comments:

shelli said...

What a beautiful post! I pray she is out of pain and at peace,

Erin said...

I love you and the way you look at life.

~Mendie~ said...

She sounds like she had a zest for life, I'm sure she would be glad you can see past the pain and sadness of the moment and see her at her prime.

Prayers for your family.

Adventures In Babywearing said...

I've been thinking about you and her. So lifey with Eden entering and your beloved aunt leaving... that's a dance in itself.

Steph

Anonymous said...

I remember her dancing too
...forever in blue jeans, babe! This was beautiful and only you could express her life so wonderfully. xoxo mb

Mimi's Toes said...

One of my favorite songs is by Leanne Womack "I hope you dance". It sounds like your Aunt Chris really lived life to the fullest. I love your perspective on your visits with her. My thoughts and prayers are with you and the family.
Steph is so right in her comment. A new life begins and one goes on to the next level.

Lost A Sock said...

Aww CE, I'm sorry for you and your family. But what a beautiful tribute to her and her life!

Stacie's Madness said...

{hugs} Life is short, we all need that reminder.

Beth at I Should Be Folding Laundry said...

I hate so much all that you are all going through, but I LOVE the way you see everything right now, with such light and such love.

She sounds so amazing. Sending you hugs, love, support and WHATEVER you need.

Love you, sweet girl.

SJ said...

Such a beautiful tribute to your Aunt. I wish you and your family peace and will send thoughts of strength and courage your way...

Kim said...

This is beautiful, oh so beautiful. I love your memories of her, I am sure she does too.

Tiffany said...

What a beautiful post and tribute to Chris... The end of life truly is a beautiful journey. As an oncology nurse, I see it more than most and have so many amazing memories that have been made with people taking this very spiritual journey. Thank you for sharing so eloquently.

Teri said...

When we have loved ones who pass on, it's such a reality check on how precious each day is. This post touched my heart. May you and your family celebrate the memories of your aunt today and forever and find peace through the sorrow of her loss. Prayers and Blessings to you~

Cousin Amber said...

This was such a beautiful post. I'm glad i waited until i got home to read it though. Very moving. Love you cousin!