thirty

Wonderful.

Wonderful, full of love and life is how I feel today.

Turning 30 has been the best birthday thus far. As I was standing over my cake at my surprise party from my family, everyone told me to make a wish as I blew out my candles. My only response was "that everything I have wished for has come true. What's left?"

It's true.


I have an amazing, loving family. A gorgeous husband and a beautiful boy. Years of hopes, prayers and wishes have now come true as well. Not only am I pregnant, but I'm having a little girl. A girl that I have prayed for and never thought I would have. My family is complete!

My life is full of wonderful people and great friends, ( like ones who overhaul your blog on your birthday). I am blessed and I have nothing but amazing plans for my thirties.

It's a gorgeous day out there everyone, I hope you all enjoy it too!



Love,
CE

JC wrote y'all a message on my belly....

I cannot tell everyone just how excited I am, there are not enough words.
Once my tears of joy stop I might be able to.
Y'all, I was right, It's a girl!!!!

Because after all, it truly is art.

Pregnancy is art no matter which way you look at it.

My belly at 21 weeks, 5 days.

One more day until we found out just who is resting in my belly
and two more days until I turn 30.





Photo by me
editing by Beth




*it took a lot of guts to post, just FYI*

A bit over 21 weeks

Tonight I took photos of my naked belly and it just made me realize just how beautiful I am. Never have I ever felt so gorgeous as when I saw my naked belly. A belly full of stretch marks that I earned with JC, I'm proud of them!

With each little kick from this sweet little baby tonight, it made me want to keep taking more and more photos. All just so I can remember just how lovely this baby in my belly really is.

Thankfully Beth didn't mind seeing my naked photos to help me edit them...maybe I'll show one soon, because I am so in love with this belly.

Dirty hands...

I found my green thumb today.
Nothing better than getting your hands dirty just
so you can have pretty surroundings all summer long.

I should get my hands dirty more often.

Turning 30 needs new hair, right?

You can't roll into a new decade with bad hair, right? So CE went and got her hair did and walked out with new colors and bangs. Officially feeling mighty fine again.

30 *is* going to be good.

This should have a clever title but it doesn't.

Random thoughts of an almost 30 year old pregnant chick. In which case, those 2 facts may not even have anything to do with this random post. Go figure...

*This folks is my 700th post. That is quite a lot of non-sense babbling on my part, if I do say so myself. Blogging for close to 3 years and my grammar/punctuation still sucks. Sweet.

*My son professed his liking for a girl for the first time ever. He said "I think I'll draw her a picture of a flower." Ah, if only are adult crushes could be so simple. Well, I kinda would like it if Mr. CE drew me a flower...

*I slightly remember my 3rd grade crush, his name was Mitch. He was dreamy...for the third grade. I'm sure his shoes were rad and his hair was awesome.

*I am indeed 10 days away from my 30th birthday and I am completely fine with that. Here is to having this decade be even better than the last. My hopes being that I allow time for self-improvement both mentally and physically.

*My 4th, 5th and 6th grade crush was the same boy. Andy. Some bloggers that I went to school with might be able to figure that out. He called me names, made fun of me and yet I still continued to like him for all those years.

*Being 20+ weeks pregnant has now made it difficult to shave. How nice of me to share, isn't it?. You are welcome.

*Still bummed that I have not had any time to use my camera and take more photos. I think I need to go back to taking more photos of "stuff" to practice more with settings and techniques. Not to mention my desperate need to learn more photo editing. I am usually very, very disappointed with my photos because of my lack of post-editing skills. THIS.MUST.CHANGE. I want photography to make me feel good again.

*Speaking of crushes(again), I never once got a chance with any of mine in school. Unfortunately I only seemed to attract complete losers and thugs. Go me. Looking back I was very, very quiet in school so I never really "put myself out there" to meet anyone either.

*Lately I can't get enough ice and lemonade. I suppose one would call that a craving.

* 2 weeks (or so) until the gender of this baby in my baby can be known. Holy cow, that's too long to wait. In the beginning I had STRONG feeling of it being a girl and even stated so in this here blog. But now? oh I'm not so sure anymore. Healthy is the one thing I am most concerned about after all...but don't we all say that?

*As of last week I have gained about 8 pounds in 20 weeks. Not cool. I think my ass found 7.2 pounds of that, the other going to my boobs (which I love). Having to go up a cup size was a pleasant and long awaited surprise. It will only get better if I get to keep them that way after the baby.

*Mexican food sounds really good right now and it's not even 10 am. Then again so does french silk pie. I gained 8 pounds how??

*This blog used to fill some kind of "missing part" for me way back when. It filled a void when people came and commented. It made me feel special, wanted, and liked during a time when I didn't have too many people in my life. When blogging stopped making me feel that way I started to dislike blogging so much. After a big decline in visitors, comments and blogging entries on my part, it in turn ended up making me feel isolated and alone. That time away from daily blogging made me realize that blogging should not be filling a void, it should only enhance my life.

*Odd fact: I eat 1/2 cup of 1% low fat small curd cottage cheese every day at work at 10 am.

*I think I might be the only one left in my age group without an iphone or a multi-media phone. I have the cheapest phone possible. No frills, no camera, no Internet...nothing.

*Food fact: I like to dip my fries in mayo. NOT miracle whip, but mayo. It's not commonly acceptable to do when dining out, so I don't' do it often. But damn it is good.

*One of my favorite sounds is rain, what's yours?

Dear Baby in my belly

Dear Baby in my belly,

You, along with your big brother, have made me that happiest woman ever and for the rest of my life I will be incredibly thankful for the both of you. Every day you let me know that I am so very lucky to have you and not a moment goes by that I'll ever take you for granted. Promise.

On a daily basis now you let me know you are in there continuing to bake until your time is just right. My only hope is that you come out much easier than your big brother, JC. At this point I spend my work days wondering if you are my little girl or my special little man. It almost consumes my entire day. I daydream about holding you, kissing you and teaching JC to be the best big brother ever. October can't come soon enough, I wish I could have you already...

Now that my belly is noticeable I can't help but love how your daddy looks at me when he rubs and pats you. Just wait, you have an amazing daddy waiting for you. Speaking of my belly being bigger, your brother ran into you so hard today he about knocked mommy over. You know what? Your big brother JC was so worried about you that he hugged mommy tight and sat and spoke to you just to apologize for knocking you around. That big brother of yours is going to blow you away with all the awesome stuff he knows. Before you will be able to crawl he'll have taught you about everything. He's just as excited as mommy is to have you. JC has been waiting for a baby brother or sister. Baby in my belly, we have been waiting for you for a long time!

Just wait little baby in my belly, you have so many people that have been praying and waiting for you. It's my hope, my wish, my passion to let you know just how much we all will love you for the rest of your life.

Love,
Mommy

Half baked

After wishing, hoping and praying for so many years for this pregnancy there are still days where I can't believe it has really happened. Our second child is truly a blessing and my pregnancy seems to be going so quickly. If only I could pause time so I can enjoy every awesome moment of my pregnancy, because at twenty weeks I'm already half-baked.

20 weeks

I moved into maternity jeans this weekend too. Not to mention about 4 # weight gain in 2 weeks. Yikes...But the best part of this past week has been all the amazing baby movements that only I can feel( so far).

boring

Bored...
Tired of the same routine at home and work. So very sick of the same old stuff day in and day out. The feelings of being stuck(at work) never go away and quite frankly I'm having a hard time dealing with it. I am craving for some kind of change, excitement, or something different to mix things up.

Truth be told I feel lonely. Which is completely odd because I'm always around people, but I still feel that way. It seems that life gets so busy doing everyday boring, mundane things that there really is never a chance to stop, enjoy and make the personal connections I so desire to. In turn leaving me at the end of the day tired, lonely, bored and unfulfilled. Life isn't supposed to be that way...

anyways...

Bored with strange feeling of loneliness leads to boring blog post ( but at least it took up 15 minutes of boredom, right?)
The end.

a glimpse

Every day I catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror or window and I'm still blown away that my belly is, well expanding rapidly. Those little eye catching moments just reminds me of just how lucky I truly am to have that baby in my belly.

taken at 18 weeks while doing yard work

Now here is to hoping that come October I catch glimpses of a skinny girl holding her sweet smelling baby.

JC, he's going places...

JC is off and going places now!

Just like crawling, walking and talking, JC finally decided to let go of his fears and learn how to ride. After years of persuading, he finally said ok to the bike that has been collecting dust or 3+ years. We couldn't be more proud of him, but the best part is to see just how proud of himself he is.

Just in about 1/2 an hour he learned and quickly declared "this is the best day of my life!"


JC, I hope this day and so many more are the best days of your life bud because you my love, are going places...



Mommy and Daddy are so very proud of you!

I finally found spring.

I finally found spring and it was in my front yard...

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