Tuesday, January 05, 2010

Packed

Although I don't start work until next week,
today is Eden's first
day of daycare.
I have her packed and ready to go.



So the list is made and the bottles are ready, but I am not.
The sun may be out, but today does not seem so bright.
I am not ready for this.


The thought of labeling her blanket and bunny make me sad. To think that someone else will most likely see her roll over first makes my stomach turn.
I even dressed her in an outfit that says "hug me"
in hopes they read it and follow through.

The sun may be out, but today just does not seem so bright.
Today is the day I dreaded since the moment I knew she would be mine.
I am *so not* ready for this.


29 comments:

Aimee said...

Reading this post makes my heart so sad for you. It's gonna be rough, but hang in there! I'll be thinking and praying for you today and the days to come so that this is as smooth a transition as possible! Hang in there!

Sidnie said...

Where's your "hug me" shirt? A Momma needs a hug too!!
Saying prayers for you both today.
Just remember that when you go to pick her up, the sun will shine so BRIGHT you'll need your sunglasses! :)

Mommy P said...

Reading this brings back memories of bringing my son to daycare for the first time.

Hugs and Prayers for you today. Know that you will get through the day and after the first couple days the drop off does get easier.

Allyson said...

You need lots and lots of love. (((hugs)))

CraftGirlAlli said...

Awww...I feel so bad for you! I remember my first day back to work like it was yesterday (and it was over 2 years ago!). You can do it! You're a strong momma and you know she'll be in good hands!

Cameron said...

Thinking of and praying for you! :)

the lewis 4 said...

Oh honey...this makes me so sad. I'm thinking of you today and in the days to come. (hugs)

Ryley said...

Thinking of you today.
And all through next week too.
It will be so amazing when you go to pick her up the afternoon!

keli.h said...

i am thinking of you today ... i am sure she will get lots of hugs. who could resist her? hang in there, d.

~Mendie~ said...

the day is halfway over....hoping it feels like it. Just think of how much her eyes will light up when you pick her up!!! Hugs.

Erin said...

I am so sad for you. Praying for you and Miss Eden.

Katie, Kevin and kids said...

Thinking of you! Every momma that does the first daycare drop off should also have their own Hug Me shirt! I hope that today went smoothly for both of you.

Corinne said...

I hope today went well... hugs to you, mama!

Mommy Mo said...

HUGS Donya! I so remember this feeling when I had to drop Sophie off for the first time. I cried like a baby and pretty much cried for 3 months straight. I did get used to it, but missed her the whole time.

Love you.

imadramamama.wordpress.com said...

big hugs to you, D!

Kim said...

Oh my love, I am so sorry you have to do this. I can't imagine how hard it must be. I have thought about how I don't think I would be able to do it. Love you.

ZDub said...

I hope it gets a bit easier for you. I know it's hard. Love to you.

XO-Z

Bari said...

Sending hugs to you and Eden today. The first day back is always hard but you know she will be in good hands. It's just hard that they are not yours.

Erin said...

I'm so sorry. For you, for me, for every woman that has to do this.

Heather D said...

It will be okay. It doesn't feel like it will now, but it will.
xoxo

Haley said...

Hugs to you. I know this must be heartbreaking for you.

Hoping that you will both get through this somehow.

:-)

Elaine A. said...

Oh hon, I'm thinking of you and sending you SO very many hugs. I hope it gets easier but I know it's hard for you.

My SIL used to say that she always lotioned her babies up the most so they would smell good and hopefully get held a lot! : )

Love you...

XOXO,
Elaine

Renée aka Mekhismom said...

Oh I remember that feeling oh so well. Hugs to you, I know it is difficult!

SJ said...

Awww sweetie, I'm sad for you. It breaks my heart knowing what you are going through because I've been there and remember the feelings all too well. I'll be thinking about you.

*Lissa* said...

This sucks, so bad. Sorry, girl.

xoxo

Mimi's Toes said...

You have me in tears girl. I wish I could take away your pain. I know it has to be so hard. Thinking of you!

Elisa said...

Awww... I'm afraid I have no words of wisdom for you, it must be hard! But she'll also have fun and have the chance to be around other babies and tots and I think that'll be good for her, too. Hey, just looking for the silver lining :-)

Courtney said...

New to your blog so I thought I'd leave a comment. I just cant even begin to understand how American mommies (I'm Canadian), have to leave their babies so soon after having them. I had a meltdown for 2 weeks prior to having to return to work after my 1 year mat leave was up after DS. So to make it less painful I went back pregnant and I only had to work from June-September and then I got to go off on sick leave prior to having DD in November :)

So props to my American momma friends for doing something so difficult! It does get better, but it never stops sucking that you can't spend the day w/ your babies :)

Courtney said...

New to your blog so I thought I'd leave a comment. I just cant even begin to understand how American mommies (I'm Canadian), have to leave their babies so soon after having them. I had a meltdown for 2 weeks prior to having to return to work after my 1 year mat leave was up after DS. So to make it less painful I went back pregnant and I only had to work from June-September and then I got to go off on sick leave prior to having DD in November :)

So props to my American momma friends for doing something so difficult! It does get better, but it never stops sucking that you can't spend the day w/ your babies :)