Thursday, March 04, 2010

random, shramdom

Life gets busy when you are having fun, but honestly, I'm not exactly having fun. I have meant to write about all the awesome things that have happened, but I either run out of time or I fall asleep with a baby in my arms. (I do like the sleep and baby part). So, I'll make this a random, shramdom type of post. Fun, huh?

* I promised JC that I wouldn't blog about him as much. It is killing me not to. A lot has been going on and I can't say a word about it. It's a frustrating time for him and us as parents. We'll get through it though, one day at a time...

*Eden baby is almost 5 months. 5 MONTHS people. Where did my skinny newborn go? I have this gorgeous chubby cheek doll who wants to sit up on her own. Next thing I know she'll be walking. (and then I'll lock her up and demand that she not grown anymore)

*Even though I sleep next to him, I miss my husband. Having a baby that doesn't sleep well anymore and another child with issues makes it hard to have time as "parents". Maybe someday soon I can have something on besides a spit up shirt and pj pants on and we can go out. You know, somewhere that doesn't have a kids menu.

*Next month is our 10th wedding anniversary. This makes me very, very happy. We beat more odds than, well I don't know what, but we beat them.

*I never got to have or try on a wedding dress and we never had that "first dance". I miss that, but the love that I have is far better.

*Currently we are on baby watch for my sister. Originally due 3-13, she has been measuring 40 weeks for a week or so now. She is currently a big 2 cm , 70% effaced and ready to go. If she doesn't have him this weekend, we will have baby Jacob here on Tuesday! Woot!

* I get chills thinking about her holding him and me getting to be an auntie to this amazing boy.

awesome. just awesome.

*It's been about 2 months since I have been back to work and I still hate it. Every bit of it. I hate the fact that my baby got so ill from daycare (rsv) and I hate the negative changes it has had on JC. But bills have to be paid and insurance is needed... but I still hate it.

*Do you read the shrinking jeans girls? Well you should. Why? I am one of them. I've been hanging out there a little bit more as of lately. Like my weigh-ins, the all happen there now. Yes, I am losing, just not enough yet! One week at a time.

*Right now I would cut someone for a fishbowl peach margarita. Just so you know.

* Also, this past week one of my favorite people announced that she is having #2. Awhile back I totally had a dream that she was pregnant, I just knew her time was coming!

* I have managed to continue my 365 project. The photos are usually taken in a hurry and late at night, but I have still been consistent and hanging in there!

*Once when I was little I wanted to be a dancer, then I realized I can't dance.

*Since being back to work I have had 2 grown men cry in my office and given lots of hugs. It's hard for older men (wwII) generation to just break down and cry. Asking for help is hard and giving them hugs was the only thing I knew I could do. That part of my job I do like.

*People never cease to amaze me. Take that however you would like...

*Pumping at works sucks. Well, obviously, but I still dislike it.

*I need a housekeeper but am very embarrassed that I need one and at the fact that my *tiny* house needs one.

*Secretly I look at housed for sale and daydream like we can actually be in one of them someday. Did I tell you how small our house is? *tiny*

* I sewed for the first time since 8th grade the other day, (thanks to baba's help) and kinda liked it. I broke the needle and all. nice huh? Good thing baba (my MIL) has patience...

*Like most people I am looking forward to spring. I need to see the sun and green grass. I can not wait to set Eden on the grass for the first time. Oh many photos will be taken!


imadramamama said...

I love your random posts, I seriously do.

Brooke said...

sorry i had to lol - you were so serious and introspective then break out the "I would cut someone..." :P

Elaine A. said...

Thinking good thoughts for JC, sorry he/you are going through a rough patch.

Right there with you on the trying for weight loss and the 365 project, oh and the 5-month old of course! ;)

Thanks for catching us up@

Sara Joy said...

We miss you, we know why you aren't here so much, but you are missed.
And I just hired a cleaning lady. It was wierd, and embarassing and the biggest relief ever. Also, it cost less than I thought. Just something to think about. :)
Smootches to you!

Ryley @ That's My Family! said...

You should totally hire a cleaning person! Its the very first thing we are doing when we have the funds. I'm seriously thinking about cancelling our cable to be able to afford it. My time with my son is too precious. I cant worry about the house when I hardly see him

And I miss you being around..

Hopefully things will slow down and get better.

I'm so sorry JC is having a rough time. My thoughts will be with you and him.

Maybe you guys could think about taking a little staycation for a weekend. Go stay in a hotel, do some fun things. maybe you guys all need it! :)

Spring will be here soon..

Bacardi Mama said...

I love random posts.

Sarah Viola said...

Did you dream it was a girl like Natalie? Spooky!

Adventures In Babywearing said...

What is a fishbowl peach margarita!? Can we have one together?


chrissy said...

love your random. About JC just know, even though you can't blog about whats going on, it won't stop the prayers! I get the whole working and parenting and hating it thing, TOTALLY!!!
Don't be embaressed by needing a cleaning lady! Get yourself one, the heartache it saves and the help it gives is tremendous! I did have one in our tiny house too, my mom kept pushing me that way, and there are no regrets!!!! I am bringing her back to our home soon!
Hang in there, you've got this!

Mama Bub said...

Listen, I stay at home with only one child and a helpful husband and I NEED a housekeeper too. I'm not going to get one, but I need one. There's no placing value on how badly any of us needs that kind of help.

Megan (FriedOkra) said...

I miss my hubby too. When I read what you'd written, my eyes filled with tears. I know that feeling SO WELL and I am so ready for it to GO. We're making an effort to spend time together, just the two of us, but after so many long months of this weird, forced distance, it's taking us time to refind ourselves as a couple. It's actually WORK, in a way. Worth it, though. I need to go look around and see if I can find pics of what you sewed!

Marcela Beatty said...

Loved this random post. So real life. It made me feel normal knowing other's go through the same things I do.

Lost A Sock said...

I always love your random posts. I'm sorry to hear about your hard times with JC. Keep telling yourself that this too shall pass. The good and the bad- they always grow out of both. Hang in there, friend.

I think we need new baby girl pictures, eh? I can't believe she's growing up so fast. Just like the rest of them... :)

JackeeG4glamorous said...

I feel you when I heard you write "I miss my husband".
I miss my husband sometimes, and he's in the room! We sometimes are just so busy to spend time together.
My children are grown and long gone, and let me tell you something, I never got one award or prize for having a clean house with all my chores done. I wished my house was a little more dirty and my kids and I spent more time together - because that time is gone now.

Christy M. said...

Sometimes random is all we have! I'm so sorry that Eden has been sick and that you have to leave her and work everyday. I know how much it sucks, and nothing anyone says can make it better. You are doing what you have to do, and your children will love for it.

I love you!

*Lissa* said...

I love that we have so much in common.

Sorry things have been so hard lately, but I think you are amazing!!