Sunday, October 23, 2011

looking at the numbers

I just woke up after 9 solid hours of sleep. NINE.That hasn't happened for the majority of my pregnancy. Today I am grateful for that sleep because soon, I will be up all night feeding, burping, diapering and having to pull myself together in the morning for my other two babies.

My 10, soon to be eleven year old, makes me wonder most days. He makes me wonder what I did right in the world to deserve such an amazing, bright boy. Then in a blink of an eye he makes me wonder what the hell I'm doing wrong as a parent. What life lesson did I forget to teach him when he just did that? {Did he REALLY just do that?? yup, he did}. The next moment I catch him being the sweetest big brother, playing, hugging and letting a toddler put bows in his hair. My momma heart swells and I know I have been doing something right at least.

Two. My little baby girl is 2. She has the spirit of many babies all poured into the cutest, most precious little body. Her eyes and smile can melt your heart and want to give her anything she could possibly want. She is 2 after all and well, you try to give her everything she wants and it usually isn't anything she wants and then there is a complete meltdown of which juice glass or bowl she wanted. Sending breakfast clear across the counter. Did I mention she is two and cute? I clean up the mess and think silently, I am gonna have 3 babies soon. whoa.

This pregnancy has gone by fast. I am 39 weeks now. My belly is low,my back is tired and my hands are swollen. I am ready to hold my sweet 3rd baby, Mr. J. I sit up at night when I can't sleep and dream of his face. Will he have the same dark hair as the other two? Will he latch as well as Miss E did? For the love of everything good in life will he sleep better than the other two? Will I be able to shower ever again with 2 small babies at home? I will take anything that happens, obviously, but may I mention that I am nervous, scared, excited, worried, happy, grateful, willing, blessed and overwhelmed? Ok. Good. I am.


1-2 weeks until I, Crooked Eyebrow, am the mother of 3 babies.
{I need more sleep}

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

You're a pro! No worries super mama. Miss E is sure to help you get a diaper or two and JC can be blackmailed by his grandmother to do anything...even make beds and color with his sister...so I hear! Who is that boy you call your son, anyway? Now hurry up Mr. J...auntie has kisses for you!
xoxo

Crooked Eyebrow said...

Believe me, mom called and said what did you do to your son? He's making beds and doing chores. I told her she picked up the wrong kid.

xoxo

Bacardi Mama said...

I am so happy for you and can't wait to see pictures of Mr. J. I also can't wait to call him by his name. I love it!!! Enjoy your last days as a mommmy of two and look forward to the adventure of three. You do an awesome job of it. I'm sure of it.

*Lissa* said...

You got this!

Can't wait to hear all about your new little one soon!

~Mendie~ said...

Ohhh....its almost time! Thinking of you and all your wonderful little ones!

June said...

Those are some exciting numbers. Numbers to be proud of ;)

Mimi's Toes said...

You will be the best momma of 3. I can't believe the thermometer is almost ready to pop out either! He will be done soon!